One of those days

I am definitely having one of those days. I would love it to be a day of silence, but, I have a ton of things to do and I am still trying to 'get moving'. 

We ended up getting around 5" of snow yesterday, just when I thought maybe I could get out in the yard and do some work. Back to shoveling, snow boots and winter coat. I am so over winter, yet it keeps showing back up. 

It reminds me of the upstairs. I go up, work for a couple of hours trying to find some space; but each time I go up I feel like I am back where I started. I joined a group on facebook called 40 bags in 40 days. I actually got rid of 53 bags so far... and yes, I can see a small dent, but the rooms are still not usable for either crafts or sleeping. I need enough space to be able to shift all of the items so I can find what I want and know where everything is...and have space to work. It will happen but not in the time frame I want, which is today. 

Maybe I need a day of silence. Get the priorities where they need to be for me. I am not even sure what they are and where they should be. Like all things in life, they change daily in different areas. I hope you are having a good day. I have to just have faith the day will improve. 

Nourishing your Soul

What nourishes your soul? Have you ever given it any thought? I did. When I first moved to France I realized that I needed nature to do that. Animals, trees, water, flowers, crickets, frogs... sights, sounds and smells. The smell of the earth out in the woods. Gardening. 

I tried taking photos, having houseplants, walking through parks but it just was not the same. I needed quiet with nature sounds. The best substitute I could find were some of those nature sound CD's and listening to them during quiet meditation time. 

We each have a soul that needs something only you can know and give. But we have to listen to our inner voice that tells us what we need. Listen to and follow that voice. It will lead you to peace within. 

I have to say, I feel like this is talking to me.  I was just looking at what I had posted the last couple of times and thought... "OMG, I am so behind on this, but life has just gotten in the way." To my own defense I do have a house and yard to take care of, still digging through boxes and getting rid of things. Up until 2 weeks ago mom was living here, but she fell, broke her leg (at 80!) and is now in a nursing home to heal and rehabilitate. So I spend a couple hours a day there. The house was too quiet with her gone so ended up going to the local animal control and picked up 2 cats and a dog, bringing the pet total to 6 if you count the 2 birds. I am also trying to get into my crafts again, both to make and sell which takes time. 

Life is always calling us... often in many directions at the same time. Are we listening? Do we take time to notice the birds singing? The leaves coming out in the spring... rustling in the breeze, turning in the fall and falling, the changes all around us each day? 

Today the snow if falling, I noticed the floors need a good vacuuming, laundry is piling up again but I also noticed that I am at peace with a purring cat or a dog asleep in my lap while I read a chapter in a good book. I am thankful for what God provides and that mom is healing, that I woke up feeling good and life may not always be calling the way I want, but it is definitely calling!!

I have actually been at odds with myself for a while over whether or not to keep my other website going for digital design. I am now on my own with no help that I had before, floundering about how to get back into designing, if it is the right direction... and the list goes on. In my heart I had to give it one more try somehow so have kept the design site open and will try again. It will mean learning all over again with a different computer and no one to back me up, but I have to be true to myself and try. This post seemed really appropriate under these circumstances.  Be positive and move forward somehow, regardless of how small a step I take, go forward. ~P

Well, it has been a long time. I am no longer in France, I am back in Michigan. My husband passed away July 2, 2013 which changed my life totally. I am back in the old family home and have mom living with me due to her dementia. Life can change in a blink of an eye and we never see it coming. After a year and 1 1/2 months, almost 2, of being back, I finally am getting the house together where I want it and am thinking again about creating somehow. Need to bring my loom down and create space to work upstairs so the mess stays out of sight. :) Interesting how I spent so much time and energy planning and worrying about when "we would return to Michigan" after his retirement and we never got to that point. He died before. It makes me realize more than ever that long term goals may be good, but don't bother spending lots of energy worrying and planning because God may have other plans for your life and His plans over rule yours. I will try and post here off and on and get back into things. We will just have to see what happens on another day!!!   

I now have 2 facebook pages going and another blog. You want funny, odd, sarcastic... and you belong to Facebook, you could check out Pip's page.... Once Upon A Time ~ Pips Phoenix  and if you want healing, positive posts, you may want to check out Smoothing Ragged Edges.  This is another facebook page.  If you don't belong to face book???  Smoothing Ragged Edges is also a blog.  

All of that will also explain why I have been neglecting here.... and still have not gotten back into designing. Can't work, keep up with family, home, pages, life and design and blog a lot. I do what I can and now bounce around a bit.   See you somewhere on one of these!!  

Awesome video at the very bottom of the page.... It has had over 300,000 shares on FB from the original uploader... MUST WATCH!!   All who breathe must watch this.....

Good Morning, Good Afternoon, Good Evening. It all depends on where you are. I have decided until I get back into my designing that I will use this blog for what ever feels right on the day I have time to post. Today it is this post.

I found it this morning while looking for something to post on Smoothing. So many different people went flashing through my mind. Some are gone now, passed on. Some have just left my life almost as quickly as they entered it, but left a huge mark. Some remain. This post is SO true. What forms those connections? People I have met on line and never in person are as connected to me or more so than some I have known all my life. How is that chance crossing of energy arranged? Why do we loose touch and even trying to find old friends with zero success, we recross people that we knew and maybe forgot about, or, cross people that we never knew but feels like we have know each other all our lives. What creates that connection between 2 people --- with no notice of age, gender, race, origin??

As I get older and more and more of the people I have known most of my life pass on ahead of me I wonder if I will know their energy after I am gone. Will we be in the same place? So many questions. We will be coming up on a year soon since my brother has passed away. 4 years younger than I am. Age doesn't matter when it is your time. Feeling very melancholy about life with all that is happening around me. Trying to make life changing decisions and then deal with the fall out from them. It is not just me. My daughter also has been facing similar things, as are many friends around me. It is the time of many changes, much indecision, many people seem so lost.  Working on my page, Smoothing  Ragged Edges daily helps tremendously in keeping me focused on the positive. I will not say that I do it every minute of every day (stay positive), I wish I could, but it does help a lot to be getting constant input of positive things into the thought process.  

My work schedule seems to be in constant flux. I just think I will have a week that is less stressful and it falls apart quickly. Guess that is just the way it will be this month!  I guess I am supposed to learn flexibility!!  May your days be going well and this finds you happy, healthy and relaxed. 

Life is like a bowl of cherries.  But those pits!!  My goal has been to stay positive. I was thinking I could do it, close to 100%. Ok... now that I have gotten realistic, the goal is 50-75%.

I am setting here, the sun must be up there behind all of those grey, dreary clouds dropping wet stuff... and it is cold. Leg warmers came out, double shirts, heavier jeans. The heat doesn't come on until I think in October. I know it goes off normally in the spring... and after it always gets cold again. But once off or on, it stays that way until the next switch is turned.

How much of life is like that for us? We do what we are doing until we are aware we must make the switch. Routines seem to make the hours/days/months go by and suddenly something changes the routine, another switch is activated. Another routine. But have you noticed that the switch can either make us realize we are in a rut and we take the time to stop and look around us with joy, or, irritate us because our routine has been broken.

Here in France a lot of emphasis is put on food. We see notices about the current foods that are in season and recipes to make good use of them. Decorating the table for the meals. Emphasis on family time at meals. A dinner with friends in the evening is never less than 2 hours. You can spend that much time easily at a lunch  out and at the end of the meal, no one is pushing a bill at you to pay and leave. They wait for you to say, "l'addition SVP".  You could set there until they close and they are not aggravated. Meal time is the time you don't just shovel it in and leave the table. You talk, eat in courses, savor what you are eating and enjoy those around you. Things are produced so when you serve them, they are not only very tasty, but pretty. You can buy little bundles of green beans wrapped, ready to cook and serve...tied together. Tasty, pretty. Lovely little bite size items for appetizers. Bites of cheese with toppings, colorful and varied crips and nuts. Sliced assorted sausage trays, small containers of olives stuffed with different things. That is just to start the meal... food is meant to be enjoyed both visually and on the tongue. Small, wonderfully rich flavorful portions of great food, satisfying... delicious.  Speaking of food,  I will go and get a 2nd cup of coffee, break off another chunk of that still warm baguette from the bakery I picked up this morning fresh from their ovens and watch the grey clouds slide by, continuing to spit rain at us and relax. Have a great day everyone!